I’ve been told various times that I should include more personal posts on here which I think is a good idea as it’ll probably help me process my thoughts better, as well as possibly connect with you guys more which I would love. I don’t have a specific subject for this post so please bare with me if it sounds kinda janky; it’s currently 3:15 am as I type this.
The thing that I can’t understand is that we are constantly being told by society to love our bodies, and be happy with ourselves, and that other people will like you better if you have self confidence. They tell us this while telling us that we are too fat, or too ugly and that we will never be good enough. It’s a vicious cycle that ends in self loathing, and I hate it. During Secondary school I was bullied and physically/mentally abused by said bullies for 5 years and never told anyone, hence me growing up with these horrible affirmations drummed into me by bullies. I was never told I was beautiful or that I deserved to fall in love or that I should be proud of myself and my body and to this day at times, I still cringe, and feel bad when I receive compliments because deep down I suppose there is still a part of me that feels like I don’t deserve to feel good about myself.
|Me when receiving a compliment. 😐|
I never thought there would come a day where I would one day look in the mirror and think “oh..i kinda look alright today”. I would never have thought there would be a day where I would be taking part in a campaign for a major UK fashion brand, and for someone who always knew for certain in her heart that she would always be single and perhaps end up dying alone, I would never have dreamed that I would be in my first relationship with the most amazing man ever who loves and accepts me how I am. That’s the most mindblowing to be honest.The key to being your true self, is to love & appreciate yourself. Here’s a little thing or two I learned about being alive on this planet. We are all different, whether it’s looks or mindsets. But we all differ. Sure , there’s people we are compatible with on different levels like friends and lovers. But here will always be people who dislike you. There are people who will stop at nothing to make you feel down. And in today’s age, it’s even easier with social media. But this shit needs to STOP. What is it that you don’t see?You are BEAUTIFUL. You are UNIQUE. You have something that I guarantee no one else on this earth has. You are a small, but vital part of the earth and how it works. LOVE you body. Your curves. Your privates. Your hair! Your nose. The weird thing your laugh does. Embrace it. Because I promise, letting yourself believe there’s something wrong with you, or that you are lacking beauty is not true. At all. There will be people who tell you that you aren’t “pretty”. Society will give you guidelines. But if you look in the mirror and you find all the reasons to love yourself, you will be happy. And that’s what is important in life. Take a picture of yourself when you’re truly happy so you can see the glow in your eyes. You can look back on that and remember how good it felt.
Just love yourself.